you cant change it

Do you know that when you have done something or something happened,

it is done.

Either you get over it or you can choose to

create noise by whining over it.

At times, we feel we should just stfu but at times we feel like whining.

For instance, I mostly whine about shit and not very often

do I ignore it. To know for a fact that I can't change it at all.

Yes, no changing. Not even a single bit.

But why do I keep whining about it?

It feels much better whining about it. You get it don't you?

Keeping to yourself kills you inside but makes you look like

a proud and happy jack on the outside.

But what would you do? Do you rather be..

a whiner that is transparent or a proud person that is

happy but killing on the inside?

For all you know, keeping on the inside..

You get comments like, 'Oh cool. You dont whine.'

IMO, at the end of the day,

you pour everything out and that would make you look

worst than an all-time whiner. I believe so because you happen to react

in a way that NO ONE could ever imagine.

Honestly, I have no idea why is this even written. Lol.

It happens to come up in my mind. :)

My point is.. When shit happen, it's done.

So, whine, let it out and you'll feel better. You'll get over it in no time.

If you choose to stfu and keep it, you just went thru shit and you're gonna kill yourself inside.

That's all.

P/S : Maybe you feel otherwise. Good for you then. :)

Shit happens. Live with it.

you know you cant

Think deep. It's all about you.

Have you ever felt that you want to do something so much...

but you cant.

All you can possibly do is nothing...

but knowing it and just be sad.

How do you overcome this? What can you possibly do to help?

Though, hoping and hoping will not help at the very moment...

but you always wished that you could do something.

By wish, it isn't just a thought like.. 'aiyah. wish I can do lor. but nvm la.'

No. Its more like a.. ' I really wish I could do something. It's really sad that I cant. ' And you feel a big amount of sadness inside you. Those kinda wish I'm talking about.

You know you can but it's just not now. It's a long way to go.

But why does this happen? Have you ever thought of that?

Is it because of 'them'? Or is it because of myself?

If it is 'them', why do 'they' do this to me? Why?

But if it's yourself, why does this happen to me? What have I possibly done to deserve this?

Still, you cant come to a conclusion of this matter. Why?

Because it is not as simple as 'cannot then cannot la'.

It's more like, 'I really really.. REALLY want to do something that can change all these crap and I'm sick and tired of this'.

After all that you've thought of, think all over again...

Can you or can you STILL not? It brings us back to where we started.

The same ol` 'do nothing and just be sad'.

*****

I would say like.. we're trapped as tight as can be sucky situation

wanting to get out.

But we know that we cant do anything but stay trapped and feel so sad, deep down inside.

Have you ever felt this way?

If you do,

" Hey there. That's what I'm going through. "

What you see in the face of people are like pictures.

You can be fudgingly sad but when you stand infront the camera,

you throw a big ass fake smile.

A promise to self : When all these changes, I'll be different.

I'll show you.